Tuesday, December 27, 2005

howdy dooo

Assalamu Alaikum,

Well, it's December. About 4 more days until 2006, which should be an interesting year.
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Saturday, October 15, 2005

Contemplation Out of Sight

Assalamu Alaikum wa Rahmatullah,

An attempt to re-write my deleted post and expound some:
Nearly two months have passed since I last came here for a "mental clean-up." An interesting two months, no doubt....

On September 17, I got married. It seemed so surreal and dream-like throughout the whole thing, or as if I was just another guest at a friend's wedding. The next few days were a type of mini-vacation, in which J and I went out everday and night, and had quite an agreeable time. Four days later though, this was cut short, because of an impending hurricane, which they called Rita. Just as anyone living in the area would have and did do, we decided to evacuate. We drove to a city (Austin) about three and a half hours away, and it ended up taking nearly 24 hours. It was an interesting, yet tiring experience, and one that I will likely never forget.

After returning from this "self-imposed vacation" or whatever it was, school re-started in about 4 days. J and I continued our search for an apartment, which in itself proved to be an interesting adventure.

Two weeks ago marked the start of Ramadan. Although I've been going to the masjid on
most of the days, that extreme feeling of unity with fellow Muslims and tranquility with oneself that usually surfaces or becomes more prominent during this month, is unfortunately lacking. Maybe its just me... Either way, half the month remains, and any change is better than none.

Another concept has truly been reinforced in my mind.. the process of getting there was not easy, but at least we can learn from our mistakes, in sha'Allah.

I have a test in Acct and one in Calc tomorrow, and I really need to study for those, so I guess I ought to head out. I luv jawalabi.

Peace out.

Something interesting I came across:
A Muslim - holds strongly to Islamic principles, but yet is adaptable to change when applying them in response to contemporary issues and challenges.

(There's more of those, leave a comment if you would like to see.)

Monday, August 08, 2005

I love caterpi king :)

Assalamu Alaikum,

I have a steadily growing headache right now. I haven't laid eyes on J for about 30 minutes, and I miss him immensely. Never in my wildest (or even tamest) dreams did I ever imagine myself acting in such an obsessive way.

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Salaam again. I started this post a few weeks back, but managed to leave it half finished and am just now returning.

School started last week, and although its
extremely hot, one of my classes is extremely boring, and I miss J a lot while I'm there, I like it. It provides me with a much-needed chance to see Possum and Aihy. I also started my other 2 classses today at SJCC, and I'm really hoping that I do well in both. In sha'Allah. The best part... I'm like 8 minutes away from J. :)

I turned 21 yesterday....an interesting age, even without the usual, known 21st Bday occurences. I got an awesome gift, that I already had....a new pet. I love it. (Shipped straight from the outback.(pronounced "aaoootback") g'day, mate.)

There's about 18 days left until what will probably be one of the most exciting days of my life. My wedding. I can hardly wait. I guess Im not like any normal bride that starts to get "cold feet" and even doubts it every once in a while or maybe wonders if she's making the right decision. But, then again, thats completely explainable....the person Im marrying is no normal person. He's "beyond that," and is the most important thing in this world to me. I know for a fact, that this is not only the right decision, but also the smartest, and best decision I've ever made. And for once, my usual indecisiveness has disappeared.

I'm happy. :)

Peace.

Wednesday, June 29, 2005

Cloud 9

Assalamu Alaikum wa Rahmatullah,

In all truth, I have no idea where to begin. This dazed state I've been in is for sure, annoying some, while others find it amusing(twanimal). I like it. There's only one thing on my mind, and that is J----. The amount of love I feel for him and from him is just incredible, and at times, almost overwhelming. But, of course, I love it. I have never been so happy in my life, and even with so many other problems, hurdles, and predicaments, everything has suddenly become livable, and I can deal with it all. I know with all my heart that this is not a mere crush, infatuation, or anything of that sort. This is IT.

The reality of me GETTING MARRIED has not hit me yet. There's still a few months left so, I can think about that later.

I miss amna. We haven't hung out in quite some time. I guess its because she's going to SJC South, while I'm at Central. Accounting is actually, surprisingly going alright. I haven't been studying as much as I should, yet I'm managing pretty well. I have an A- or a B+ right now.......

I don't have much else to write.
Wasalaam. Peace.

Thursday, June 16, 2005

WOW!!

Assalamu Alaikum wa Rahmatullah!!!

When I previously wrote "life-altering" in my post, I had no idea to what degree this event would alter my life. Now, all I can say is "wow! " Im basically speechless, and of course, ecstatic. For once, I'm completely at a loss for words. And, when I do attempt to talk or converse with someone, I sound like a blubbering idiot. Which is also fine, because I'm too happy to care. :)
I thank Allah (SWT) day and night for answering my Du'aa, for continuously providing me with unlimited oppurtunities, and for rightly guiding me. Alhamdulillah!

I think I'm going to come back and edit this post in about.....3 or 4 days? In sha Allah. :)

On a not-so-exciting, mind-blowing note, I'm currently taking my Defensive Driving Class, by DVD. The sheer boring nature of it has helped a bit with bringing me back to reality. Somewhat. Or not....that's just what I want to believe. Either way, I must resume watching now, so peace out.

Wasalaam. Peace. :)

Friday, June 10, 2005

Alhamdulillah.

Assalamu Alaikum wa Rahmatullah.

Current state of mind: improved GREATLY since last week. Alhamdulillah. All praise be to God (Allah). I think its partly due to the fact that I've started this long, treacherous, perplexing, arduous journey.......also known as FINANCIAL ACCOUNTING. :) It aids me in more ways than one...by helping me to keep my mind occupied, at least sometimes; by rearranging my schedule...in a wonderful way, etc.

The week progressed at a perfect rate, not too fast or too slow. Some life-altering events took place...in sha'Allah all for the better. Sunday was the picnic at the Masjid. That was fun, although my newly fractured nose ached throughout the whole thing. Afterwards, Summer and I stopped at Goodies, where we had an interesting conversation which was about nothing particular.

Accounting is going well enough.

Should I or should I not write about the main thing on my mind right now? Its perpetually bothersome, and I cannot think of much else. Hmmm...maybe later.

Halaqa at 7:15 at my house, there's about 20 people coming. So, I should definitely head out now.
PEACE. Walaikum Assalam wa Rahmatullah!!!

Monday, May 30, 2005

Rain...and blessings.

Assalamu Alaikum,

Well, I went to the twins' party. It was undoubtedly different. And, extremely interesting. Halfway through, we realized the keys to Possum's automobile were AWOL. After about 2 long, wet, dark hours of searching, we finally alerted her rentz. They brought a spare key..and we returned home.
Upon returning home, I noticed an atypical, eerie darkness in my neighborhood. ALL the lights had gone out...including the streetlamps. After cautiously entering the house, I found the family in the back living room, all holding paper fans, huddled around candles. The initial excitement had already passed, and by now everyone was adjusting quite well. The first thing I noticed was the HEAT. It was extreme, almost to an unbearable point, and got worse the higher up you went (upstairs). This whole experience got me thinking. Thinking about how immensely blessed we are. It may not seem like a big deal to us in our everyday lives, but because of a small loss of electricity, our lives were temporarily at a stand-still. This reminded me of Pakistan and the almost nightly black-outs....and I was instantly grateful for a stable and constant source of electricity. Its not only about that though....just so many things (materialistic, of course, but nonetheless, VERY important)...
Anyways, today we (amna and I) went to the mall...my mom needed (wanted) a few things from Foleys...and the 1-2 hour deal ended up being a 4-hour escapade. The coolest thing I found was a digital camera at Sharper Image. Its SOOOOOOOO cute. I want it. I need it. I am getting it. I came home and informed my parents about it, and of course they made me research it online (just like any other thing I want to purchase)...and in the end, they agreed...that it was awesome, and that I should buy it. So, there goes randomly throwing money around for the next 2 months. I guess it wouldn't be too difficult to restrain myself. All I have to do is not buy every Summer-y dress on sale that I see...Not go out to eat at fast food places everyday.....(I can still go to nice restaurants, because that only occurs twice a month or so.), etc......

The last 2 paragraphs seem to contradict each other ...

Peace.

Sunday, May 29, 2005

Uptown Park........

Assalamu Alaikum wa Rahmatullaah...

I'm eating biryani. had one of the funnest weekends in quite awhile.

Friday afternoon....we went to Cafe Gabriel....that was pretty neat. then a very interesting, thought provoking, tear invoking conversation between me and amnaS when I got home....

Friday night was Iman's wedding...that was fun. whatchamacallit's mom was there. i avoided her, but in the end, she, herself came up to us and said Salaam and stuff. that was extremely interesting.
afterwards, we decided to get ice cream...and not ordinary ice cream, either. In the end, it was agreed that we should go to Post Oak or Uptown. So, we did, with the help of the navigation system woman (helpful idiot that she is (possums car)). Finally, we arrived in the Uptown Park Blvd. shopping strip. We got out and everyone STARED. Mind you, it was nearly midnight. we had our ice cream, and met 2 of the nicest, most innocent girls EVER, then headed out. Then we saw the BRAND NEW Lamborghini. wow. it was amazing. spectacular...etc. I had an extreme urge to touch it, but the crowd around it proved that to be quite a difficult task. plus there was a creepy Persian dude lingering close by.......................
anyhow, its always fun hanging out with possum. i love that skank.

saturday...was also lots of fun. i think i'll write about that at another time.
Im getting ready for the twins' graduation party.

Peace. (in the Middle East.) IN SHA'ALLAH :)

Wednesday, May 25, 2005

ADVANCE!!!!!!!!!!! (What Im currently listening to)

this is an audio post - click to play

state of mind

Assalamu Alaikum,

After giving my current inner discussion/question large quantities of thought.....and going undecided for quite some time, I've come up with an elucidation...if it may be called one.

Anyhow, back to reality. I got an awesome tan. I've never had one before. When I was younger, I was SO extremely pale, I'd only burn and turn red. And, recently, since I've actually gained some color....I haven't had time or a chance to get a tan. So, this excited me, quite some. and then some.

Also, Summer school starts in about one week...I'm a little bit scared about the new school and a lot scared about the class. I'm going to attempt, and in sha'Allah, PASS Financial Accounting Principles.

I have also made many great realizations in the past week or so. Things that my parents ALWAYS said, yet I highly doubted... as the common saying goes: better late than never.

I'm eating BBQ'd tikkah right now.

Peace.

Thursday, May 12, 2005

Assalamu Alaikum waRahmatullah,

Wow. School is over. April showers bring May flowers. :) I sure hope so. Literally...and otherwise.
Exactly what am I doing at school today? 3 days after my last final? That brings me to the latest event, the latest "MONKEY," taking up not only my time, but more importantly, and more painfully, my brainspacce. MSA Parents Night Dinner. I never knew such work and time could go into planning such a thing. Well, with SEMY, I always did plan out stuff, but in the end, people always come through...and stuff works out. Hopefully, that'll happen here.
I'm currently working on a slide-show. I want it to be one like never-before, one that'll blow 'em away. Make everyone feel all.....emotional. :) i like that.

I saw "The Kingdom of Heaven" last weekend. It was........awesome.relatively. Although some parts angered me, it was a portrayal of Muslims that went up about 98% from usual. It REALLY moved me, I wanted to "jump in the screen and start killin folks."

Will continue later.........

Monday, March 28, 2005

Assalamu Alaikum

So, I went to court. The judge was EXTRA nice. He asked if I had taken defensive driving since March...I was like ummmmmm no. My rentz paid for it all. :) The threats were all...just threats. So, I still have enough money for the Galleria next week...

Weekend was fun..Usool ul Fiqh. That was crazy, nerve-wracking, intense....etc.
then, the mall with KT and fari. he made me his official personal shopper or something. we went to Express and Banana where his extreme metro-ness could be recognized. we found we have the exact same taste. my mom was disgusted by the shirts from express. :) she has yet to understand the difference between metro and homo.

got an email from __. That was SO last year.

lil bro might go to chicago..maybe. its gonna be weird. ive never been away from him more than a week.
k, sleep time. wassalaam

Thursday, March 24, 2005

Salaam.

March already! Almost April...and MIST.

Tests upon tests have been attacking me this week. One in business Calculus tomorrow. Am I prepared? hehe...W'Allahu 3'lam.

My uncle came down from Chicago...it was fun. He's still here. Everyone went out to the Galleria and then ate at Bijan. Too bad I was unable to go. I was very very sad. Bijan's good. Yummy Persian.

They've asked me to do a talk on Hijaab on TV. Channel 8, I believe. I'm soooo scared, I told my dad it's highly unlikely.. everyone's saying I should go for it. But, what if I make a total idiot of myself? Or worse, don't portray such an IMPORTANT message correctly; like send out the wrong message? May Allah forgive me.

I have this urge to read a REALLY good book, but have absolutely no time...and its hard to find a good AND interesting book these days. Maybe I'll read "Muhammad" again. bUt..Someone's borrowing it.

The Imam from UT masjid called today....

I think I should study now.

Thursday, February 24, 2005

"Like, omG!!"

Another week. another month. Oddly enough, somehow, I repeatedly run into ___. Not once, or twice, but every other day. Interchangeably. Coincidence? W'Allahu 3'lam.

This weekend was FOL. I had fun, learned A LOT of new stuff, gained knowledge that, in sha'Allah. I will keep with me forever. Through tough times, and easy times.

So, as for the situation, what to do? wait around forever? or take another initiative? i think the BEST and most fruitful solution is just Qiyam. Constant Qiyam. Until and even after.
May Allah(SWT) guide me to do so, and may He let this all work out. AMEEEEEEEEN.

Friday, February 04, 2005

more ramblings and such...

Assalamu Alaikum...

I read something VERY interesting today. It involves the structure of a phone call....it went into details of how a typical phonecall progresses.

Anyways, today was MSA meeting #2. It went alright. We decided on a boatload of events, dates for these events, and what to do for/about money...

Well, whenever I think of something interesting and beneficial to write in here I shall return, in sha'Allah.
Wasalaam.

Saturday, January 15, 2005

bored.

Salaam. saturday morning...no.. afternoon. Washed dishes, cooked up some taco meat for mom.

So, I've been thinking about this thing now. although i know it was all for the best...that random thought of "what if" always comes back and i can periodically hear it resonating in the back of my head. And, I know its the devil.

since this is my first post on this here blog, i think i should celebrate. YIPPPEEE! Well, i'll be heading out. this was one short post...i realize it. peace.