babeee dwiving

Assalamu Alaikum,

Well its been a few weeks... a lot has happened since.
For one, J has been feeling much better lately, which I'm very glad about. Alhamdulillah. Everything happens for a reason, and we should always take a lesson from everything in our lives, and not make the same mistakes more than once.

Let's start with the weekend before last, the day of the big dinner party. Well, J and I woke early and began to cook and clean. He made soup (Broccoli and cheese), and it was realllly good. I was proud of him. Then we made the entrees; chicken breasts stuffed with feta, spinach, and sun-dried tomatoes. That was extremely complicated. Then, I made the potatoes, also stuffed, and really pretty too. My mom came over and helped us clean the living room which was coated with papers.
After that, we finished cleaning, and the guests began to arrive. First, TayTay came, then Mr. and Mrs. O(aka mom n dad in law). Then, last, Mr. and Mrs. B(hehe, aka mom n dad) . They all loved the food, and ate almost everything. Then, for dessert, we had berry parfaits, which actually turned out really good, much to my astonishment. (Because they were semi-healthy).
Afterwards, the women went upstairs, and we all just talked for an hour or 2, while the men stayed downstairs and talked about politics and **surprise surprise** engineering. I bet J was bored. hehe.
Then, last week, J had training. It was about an hour away, so we decided to get a hotel room, so as to ensure him arriving on time every morning. It was pretty boring whilst he was in training, so I decided to venture out on the town the second day. I found a place called City Walk, which was their equivalent to "Rice Village" or something. Except, you had to pay for parking....by the minute. I parked, fed the meter, and began to explore. I had gotten about 3 yards from my car, when suddenly I felt extremely faint; it was like 98 degrees out there. I decided to go back to the hotel room and watch TV....after stopping at Starbucks :)
After I picked J up, we went out to eat, and just chilled and stuff. I was EXTREMELY glad to be home though. Man, some people are so absurdly extravagant. Its crazy. Even if we ever did have that much money (like upwards from 5 Million, it seemed like.) we'd never be like that. I hope.
Last weekend was alright. Saturday was "family time" dinner at the in-laws. It was actually kind of awkward for some reason, and everyone wasn't all jokey as usual. :/ And, J was very agitated. Afterwards, we all just chilled and ate cake. In the evening, we (the women) went to the mall. It was quite fun. I got lots of cool stuff, compliments of my mom in law. :) Kirklands was especially fun, since it was just us 2. Then, we went to Jamba Juice, and then headed home. At night, (5 minutes later), we went to the Baigs' for "game night." Haha. It was fun, and Bapee had a surprise victory, although she made sure to repeatedly complain about the sheer "boringness of the game."
Sunday, me n J saw "The Break-Up." It was alright, a little funny, but a bit too .... extreme. Like, man, they fight like crrrrazy. And, both of them were so stubborn. No wonder they wanted to break-up. I didn't like the end, though. It left me with a sour feeling.

This week was pretty fun...we went to car dealerships and looked around. We both want to get a new car in about 2 years, so we were looking at our choices. 2 years because it would be totally unreasonable, extremely bratty, and probably even Haraam(if you went through proper Qiyaas), to go get new ones while we have perfect ones right now. I never understood people that get new cars every 2 years. W'Allahu 3'lam. Then, I got to thinking, and even though my car will have like over 100k miles, I'm so totally going to miss it. Now I understand people, especially guys, that get emotionally attached to their cars.

Anyhow, J got me an AWESOME gift a few days ago, and surprised me with it today, right before Isha prayer. Its soooooooo cool. I'm listening to it right now. Here's a pic:(at the bottom of this post.and, NO im not listening to that Haraamness shown in the pic.) I'm so excited. Its the cutest thing ever...other than Mariyah, Alakapoochie, J, Golu, etc... its much tinier than I ever imagined, and I can't stop touching it, looking at it, just playing with it.

Well, I'm extremely tired, so I should head off to bed. Alakapoochie is asleep on top of my laptop, so I'm using J's. I'm so glad tomorrow's Friday. Yiippppeeee.

Walaikum Assalam. Peace.
-Amna

the pics not working....so I'll just say: its an iPOD Nano. :)))) a black one.

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Assalamu Alaikum,

I truly need a mental clean-up/unload right now. I cannot fall asleep, although I am tired, because of all these random thoughts soaring around in my head. J fell asleep; I'm glad, because he hasn't slept well in weeks.

Last week, J and I took Omar and Nora to go buy a board game. A 5-minute task turned into a pretty amusing 2-hour escapade. We ate at McDonald's, fought over which game to buy, then all agreed, then bought lotsss of candy. In the end, we decided on Risk; Omar and J's choice. They reassured me that it was a whole lot of fun, but I was skeptical for quite some time....Until I played. It was awesome. Me, J, Nora, Omar, and both my in-laws played..and played..and played. Suddenly it was like 1 am, and everyone went to bed. The next night, Friday, we arrived early to "finish." Let's just say the game's still going.

The weekend was an entertaining one also. Saturday, we had dinner with the Baigs', after which we once again engaged in a game of Risk. This one went till about 3:30am, and in the end, after battling it out with me, J won. Sunday, we had an awesome dinner of Koosa Mahshii at the in-laws. Too bad everyone was in a bad mood because of an earlier phone call my mom-in-law had received. After a few hours of talking about random things, we decided to go see "Over the Hedge." Me, J, Omar, and Nora went in the end, and the movie was absolutely adorable.

Monday Night Nora spent the night; we stayed up talking for a while.
Tuesday, Tayyab came over in the morning, and both of them played all day. I cleaned. Then, I decided to attempt a gourmet entree. And, Lo and Behold, it actually turned out REALLLLY good. I made something called "Pesto Shrimp and Pasta with Sweet 100s". Odd name, aye? Surprisingly, it was very scrumptious and appealing. Then, in the evening Omar came over, and all of us just chilled until about 2am. (another reason J realllly needs sleep right now).

Last night, we babysat for the Baigs' while they went out to eat. The babies were already asleep so it was fun; we just talked and chilled. They came home, and we watched House, and then Bapee and OB arrived. We ended up staying until 1:30. (babysleepy).

I'm sooo extremely glad that tomorrow marks the start of the weekend. We have a weekend full of stuff to do, and I'm hoping all goes well, in sha'Allah. Sunday's the big dinner party, and I really hope it goes good, since my guests are quite important, and I love em all a lot.

Anyways, this week has been interesting, to say the least. Alhamdulillah, the huge problem, which was definitely taking its toll on J and me, is finally resolved. W'Allahu 3'lam why it had to take so long. Even as it exited our minds, it left its mark; J has 4 new white hairs because of it. The poor baby. Of course, this situation, like many situations of its type, proved to be quite enlightening. I've learned many things about friendship, marriage, and just the human race, in general.

I've rambled on for a while, yet I haven't even approached the topic that is the main cause of bother and dismay. I really don't know what to think anymore, I just thank Allah (SWT) day and night for giving me J; because I know, that no matter what happens, he'd never betray me, leave me, talk about me, go against me, or deceive me. Alhamdulillah.

Its also interesting how people assume the worst and believe everything that comes their way; even when they know deep down inside that its not true. I've learned that sometimes the truth, and life itself are very bitter; but you just have to accept the way things turn out. Because, everything happens for a reason. I guess, in some circumstances, these bitter truths are just masked by more appealing charactersitics, and therefore, mislead you, and at the same time, become more difficult to accept. I saw this one coming for a while now, I just kept postponing the "ultimate showdown" and waited, most likely to avoid pain. And now, its all over. To make the best of an extremely sour situation: at least I won't be hurt (and forgotten) repeatedly and endlessly. A few random speculations of mine, I guess.

Well, I hope I can finally fall asleep, in sha'Allah, since I've managed to clear my head some. Until next time, Peace out.

These few lines keep repeating in my head:

"These wounds won't seem to heal, This pain is just too real, There's just too much that time cannot erase."

Walaikum Assalam.
Amna

weekEND

Assalamu Alaikum.

Its Tuesday. The weekend was tyte cuz it was 3 days long!!!! Well, let's see...
Friday, I can't remember...oh yeah!! We went to the in-laws', hung out...then went home. After awhile, we decided we'd watch X-Men 1 and 2, so we rented them and went to the Baigs'. Fari came also. Twas fun; I never in my life thought I'd like those movies, but in all actuality, they were quite good. Made you think and stuff.

Saturday was the graduation. It was alright. Tayyab looked SOOOOO cute in his cap and gown. Afterwards we went to Hina's for dinner and stuff. The food was extremely good. It would have been fun, but J was being harassed by someone, and was sweating like crazy, and felt dizzy all day. Poor thing. We stayed until about 12, and then we went home.

Sunday, we woke up semi-early to work on the Entertainment Session for the conference. J was in charge of it or something. We (me 'n J) worked like craaaaaazy for like 4 hours, and finally had all the questions ready. Then we went to the conference, and hung out...we kept trying to fix the powerpoints, the questions, the BANK screen, etc...so we didn't really go to any lectures. The game was SPLENDID. I thought it went realllllllly well, Alhamdulillah. A certain person didn't think so, and decided to yell at J for it; which reallllly pissed me off. I mean, criticism is a most welcome, and even more expected thing...but there's a way to do even that. And, that just was not the way. Well, after the conference, we were supposed to go on our "fun, exciting, adventure," but I was too tired, so we went to the Baigs' instead to play POKER. Instead we watched House. All night long, until 3am. That's the ONLY tv show I've ever liked so much. Its sooo good.
Monday, we slept in.. talked...chilled..y'know. :) Then, we went for dinner at the in-laws.' We had shakriya which was realllllllly good (Im eatin leftovers right now.) Afterwards J and G went to buy controllers for the new GameCube (J bought it for Nora/Omar for graduation). Then, all of us played..... WHAT ELSE...Supersmash!!! I've finally begun to not hate it. Its kinda cool, actually. In the end, the experts backed off, and me and my mom-in-law played...and I BEAT HER!!!! YAAAY!! Then, the 'kids' played again, and me and her just talked for an hour or 2. We finally left around 10. We went to see The Last Stand, after that. It was alright, but slightly lame and extremely short. It was fun, though.

It was an interesting weekend. Now, I'll be heading out to play more Supersmash.
Peace out.
-Amna B-O.

yay AND ugh

Assalamu Alaikum,

Welllllll. Its Monday night. J is kinda sick, so he's already asleep, which in turn, is the reason for my extreme boredom.

Well, Friday was fun fun fun. My spa party ended up being spa-less, except the tons of lit candles I put everywhere. We just talked, chilled, ate...did shots...with my mother-in-law. Hehe. Fortunately, I can't post the pics. :)

I slept around 8am, after hours of just talking, eating, and "beeeeeeeyop." I awoke at 1, and called J, so he could come home. He had spent the night with D, and was mighty tired after a "wild" night of Red Alert.

We wanted to do something "fun," but then his friend, A, called and reminded us of the Banquet. We got ready, and were just about to leave, when J's mom called, and said she had a flat tire. Alhamdulillah, it was perfect timing; if it was 10 minutes later, we would have been far away, and she would have had to wait. Anyways, her spare was missing so the whole ordeal took about 2 hours. We arrived at the banquet, to find they had already eaten. So, we stayed and watched all the speeches, slide shows, and awards. It was a little bit boring, and just kinda kept dragging on and on.

Anyways, certain people are never to be believed or trusted. And, of course, W'Allahu 3'lam. I am soooo angered and feel quite used by some. And some "friendships" are irrepairable. I don't know why I've let this come this far. I should have stopped it in the bud, when I first saw these characteristics, these backstabbing ways.. And, may Allah (SWT) Help me now, and give me strength.

Assalamu Alaikum.
-amna

............

Assalamu Alaikum,

Well, since my last post...... things haven't really improved much.

J's a little bit better, Alhamdulillah. His parents are still trying to cope/deal with the problem. Outwardly they act like everything's good, but when we go over and talk, a whole new side to the story appears. I've never seen N as sad as she was this past week. I just hope everyone can go back to normal. I can tell this is affecting people in a horrible way. In the end, W'Allahu 3'lam.

Anyhow, I can't wait till my SPA Party tonight. Its not exactly a party....only my closest confidantes are coming (sisters, sis-in-law, brat,tw,etc..) but I hope all goes well. I'm still sick, but at the same time I'm bored.

J and I are hopefully doing something FUN and "thrilling" this weekend. hehe. I just have to plan it. I want to do something spectacular for him; something that he'll never forget. Kind of similar to "le surprise."

Well, I should be running along now...

Wasalaam, peace, and until next time CYA!

-Amna

siiiigh

Assalamu Alaikum,

Siiiiiiiiiiiiiigh. I am so burnt out. J's so sad, he hardly laughs anymore. All because of someone and someone else. I'm so fed up with these people.

Well, this weekend was interesting. Friday was Family Night. I was the only girl there. The others went to a party instead. Some "shura" we have. I set up half the cafeteria on my own, and then Naj came and helped me out. Do I not have a right to be angry/annoyed?? Then, Saturday, Build A Masjid. At least a few people showed up KINDA on time. At first, J, me, and Nora chilled and brought in all the supplies that had been inhabiting my car for quite some time. Then a few people began to arrive. We set-up and Build a Masjid was underway. It went pretty well, Alhamdulillah. I was proud of myself (and J and his bro who both helped a lot.) Then, after the event, more cause for anger. Here I am, cleaning the bathroom, ALL ALONE, someone walks in, says "since you don't need help I'm gonna leave. c you at the party!!" I have never been so angry in my life. Well, actually I have...the very next day.

Anyhow, I am sooooooooooooooooooo sick right now. I threw up all over the comforter yesterday, I just couldn't stop it. I was getting up to go clean up in the bathroom, when more puke came.

I feel like taking J and going away, somewhere far away, where he will no longer be sad, depressed, and quiet. I want my old baby back. The one that sang me songs, talked to me about everything, joked about everything, etc. Some days are still ok, and then like an old memory that blows in with the wind, its all over. Back to the sadness.

Well, I'm hoping, in sha'Allah, the next time I write will be a much happier post. Maybe about a gobitt. :)

Wasalaam. peace.
amna

Long time, no post...

Assalamu Alaikum,

Its been quite a while since I've written.....Blogging was usually a method to clear my mind and attempt to rid myself of worries and stress..and J has taken over that. :)

Well, lets see....Nothing really spectacular took place in January....February was ok....We set the date for the Walima, and began to prepare for it. After countless trips to David's Bridal and Men's Wearhouse, we both had our outfits. The most stressful thing, which was also the most time-consuming was the invitations. Siiigh. Never again am I having a party for 550 people.

Before the wedding, we finally decided on a place to live. Its a 2-story townhome, sorta like a mini mansion. We also bought most of our furniture, which is just awesome, if I do say so myself. We've been devoting the past 2-3 weeks to the house.

The wedding was...astonishing. Everything (almost) went perfectly. I love being part of a inter-racial marriage..it makes things much more interesting, and harder too, of course.

Last weekend, we decided to go on a vacation. We drove to San Antonio on Saturday morning and returned Sunday morning. It was a whole lot of fun, especially the boat ride, the shopping, eating out, everything.

And, finally, last but, definitely not least....I got J's surprise.
After months of planning, it didn't work out exactly as planned, and for a despairing minute I thought it might be a disaster.. But, then seeing the look on his face made any gloomy feelings disappear instantly. I'm sure you're wondering what the surprise is... None other than our newest family member, "ALAKAPOOCHIE." She's 8 months old, half calico and half tabby, and the sweetest thing in the world. (If you STILL don't get it, its a kitty. hehe).

Today, all the guys left for the SEMY Camp. I dropped J off early in the morning, at the Masjid, where they were supposed to meet. I talked to him twice since, and I miss him so extremely much. I'm just glad I have something to keep me occupied while he's gone for the weekend. (Alakapoochie, the Qiyaam, and other things.)

Well, I should be heading out now, I'm invited to my mom's for lunch. And, I think I'm going to try and get an oil change, if time permits.

Assalamu Alaikum........
peace.

howdy dooo

Assalamu Alaikum,

Well, it's December. About 4 more days until 2006, which should be an interesting year.
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Contemplation Out of Sight

Assalamu Alaikum wa Rahmatullah,

An attempt to re-write my deleted post and expound some:
Nearly two months have passed since I last came here for a "mental clean-up." An interesting two months, no doubt....

On September 17, I got married. It seemed so surreal and dream-like throughout the whole thing, or as if I was just another guest at a friend's wedding. The next few days were a type of mini-vacation, in which J and I went out everday and night, and had quite an agreeable time. Four days later though, this was cut short, because of an impending hurricane, which they called Rita. Just as anyone living in the area would have and did do, we decided to evacuate. We drove to a city (Austin) about three and a half hours away, and it ended up taking nearly 24 hours. It was an interesting, yet tiring experience, and one that I will likely never forget.

After returning from this "self-imposed vacation" or whatever it was, school re-started in about 4 days. J and I continued our search for an apartment, which in itself proved to be an interesting adventure.

Two weeks ago marked the start of Ramadan. Although I've been going to the masjid on most of the days, that extreme feeling of unity with fellow Muslims and tranquility with oneself that usually surfaces or becomes more prominent during this month, is unfortunately lacking. Maybe its just me... Either way, half the month remains, and any change is better than none.

Another concept has truly been reinforced in my mind.. the process of getting there was not easy, but at least we can learn from our mistakes, in sha'Allah.

I have a test in Acct and one in Calc tomorrow, and I really need to study for those, so I guess I ought to head out. I luv jawalabi.

Peace out.

Something interesting I came across:
A Muslim - holds strongly to Islamic principles, but yet is adaptable to change when applying them in response to contemporary issues and challenges.

(There's more of those, leave a comment if you would like to see.)

I love caterpi king :)

Assalamu Alaikum,

I have a steadily growing headache right now. I haven't laid eyes on J for about 30 minutes, and I miss him immensely. Never in my wildest (or even tamest) dreams did I ever imagine myself acting in such an obsessive way.

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Salaam again. I started this post a few weeks back, but managed to leave it half finished and am just now returning.

School started last week, and although its extremely hot, one of my classes is extremely boring, and I miss J a lot while I'm there, I like it. It provides me with a much-needed chance to see Possum and Aihy. I also started my other 2 classses today at SJCC, and I'm really hoping that I do well in both. In sha'Allah. The best part... I'm like 8 minutes away from J. :)

I turned 21 yesterday....an interesting age, even without the usual, known 21st Bday occurences. I got an awesome gift, that I already had....a new pet. I love it. (Shipped straight from the outback.(pronounced "aaoootback") g'day, mate.)

There's about 18 days left until what will probably be one of the most exciting days of my life. My wedding. I can hardly wait. I guess Im not like any normal bride that starts to get "cold feet" and even doubts it every once in a while or maybe wonders if she's making the right decision. But, then again, thats completely explainable....the person Im marrying is no normal person. He's "beyond that," and is the most important thing in this world to me. I know for a fact, that this is not only the right decision, but also the smartest, and best decision I've ever made. And for once, my usual indecisiveness has disappeared.

I'm happy. :)

Peace.